| its going to be nov 20th 2009 soon! happy birthday regineeee. haha and here's a shinee song for you readers because there can never be a post in yourfavouritegirl wo sth korean, right? heehee. you may have t up th volume abit t listen t this one :} its such a beautiful song from shinee, i feel. didnt we leave for cambodia this time last year? or was it some time before it? haha i rmb we were alr there on nov 20th.. kunwei was in room 20.. something. :P i was reading my previous posts on ocip and i sounded so happy and fulfilled! gosh.. haha im nothing like how i was last year. but then again, its obvious isnt it? haha people always change. and i gained a lot of weight! thaaaats a big change. haha no pun intended! last november is easily be one of the best times of my life; practicing for th dance items (fusion and mass, i rmb.. ha scary shit), planning th schedule when we're there, hanging out in th hotel rooms playing stupid games saying stupid things like we're one big family, growing closer t everyone cuz everyone's so amazing, learning new things about ourselves and th people around us (a nicer way of saying WE GOSSIPED A LOT)....... i love ocip 08! and i do hope 09 would be just as fun. receiving miss lee's text on how 'its time for ocip again' makes me feel so dejected because i cnt be part of them this time. *shrugs* i hope th juniors have plenty of fun and they do manage t learn something out of this whole trip :) 'to 10 million fireflies, im weird because i hate goodbyes, i get misty eyes because they say farewell' haha i miss every single one from ocip. yes, even miss wee! HAHAHA. and our resident emo kid/teacher. hahahaha. and uh, my black converse shoes i left there :\ haha i still rmb christina's and my mum's horror when she found out tht i actually left my shoes in cambodia. 








anyhow! hello there :) it's about 4 more papers till im done with all the notes. 4 more papers till th end of my a levels. after finishing my econs paper which i thought was honestly quite tough? haha i dont know why i completed 20mins before time. i mean.. where did i get those time? its frightening t know tht its just too fast t have completed so early.. and then i realised i missed out on writing A LOT of content. how sad it is, knowing tht one didnt give one's best. ):
came home and slept for 13 hours.. slept fitfully though, was kind of jittery still. melissa my twin who was in the same bus as I-candy, you've nothing t worry abt alright! your globalisation question was well done. i still cant believe i did th toughest few qns in the paper, namely 2, 3 and 5. i dont know whts wrong w me ): wish i read q3 and q4 better.. and chose q4. bloody hell! its really like what selestine said- 08 paper may be tough, but 09 paper really owns. but anyway.mm, but its all over, and we're only left with p1 for econs :) so yupp. wish eileen and i could study together all th time eh? haha its truly a comfort knowing someone else is awake and feeling as screwed as youre..... hahaha. hope physics will be good for you today, eileen lee <3 and for peiqi and yanfen too! i think yanfen is really nice, you know. she texts me before my chem paper t wish us chem pple luck.. haha idk, i find tht strangely comforting. she does it all th time, just before chem :) thank you! always forget t thank pple like her, for those little stuff tht pple like her do all th time w such kindness. i realised, also, tht only male seniors wish me good luck before th papers. no female seniors did tht! :\ YA JIEXI I TALKING ABT YOU hahaha to digress a little, hanging out with my girls (ya i own them) after econs was so fun! :) haha i love you all, haha you make me SO happy. school wld be so different had you guys not been part of it.. haha peiqi peiqi wo ai ni! heehee.
i think mr tan from the office is so nice! haha it was raining yesterday and he told me to take another exit from school so i wont be soaked from th rain. haha so silly right, my bus stop is at th other side! haha! he made everyone around me laugh so hard. :} so funny, but so so nice still. i think he's one of those staff i really like in school- he never fails to smile and say HELLO GIRL HOW ARE YOU? every time he sees me. and he'll be very happy when i say th alevels are 'okay'. :) and i still rmb he gave me 2 lollipops during orientation camp 09! and when it rained one morning this year and th staff were actually at th front gate armed with umbrellas so tht they can shelter th students when they 'alight' from th car/bus. and mr tan was there, too! haha. so nice right :D i must say im really fortunate t have th luck t meet nice people whenevr i go. tpjc is rlly, rlly, truly filled with very generous and thoughtful people. and funny, of course. though.. to mark, we sadly fall short in the 'intelligence' department. ha, how cld he have said such things, right? how cld anyone who've been thru th shit jc system say such things, right? i can never fathom why they do.
sometimes i say stupid things t insult wht students in my school do, but i know deep down inside i never really mean it. people insult others in different circumstances t make themselves feel good, t make others feel like 'theyre not alone' in feeling this way, t make th circumstances a bit more comfortable. i think its important tht such dissing (tht we're all stupid and lazy) should stop. especially from ourselves.. i guess it's always easy to put ourselves down so th situation is lighter, but it's never a better situation t do tht.. just an easier one. this topic never, never fails t make me all riled up and indignant. it is entirely possible tht i go on, and on, and on.. i wonder how will it be in uni? (if i do manage t get into one, of course.. w math being such a bitch of a paper) will people still continue w it? like how pple from medicine are always better than th ones from business, who are btter than th ones from social science who are better than th ones from engineering... and so on. th standard response frm every1 wld prlly be tht it will still be th same, tht stereotypes will continue t exist for reasons tht i DO understand. but its just rather.. sad, i guess. *shrugs* my sister just dyed her hair brown, painted her nails green (ew much) and did all sorts of ah lian things she cld possibly do after the o levels. haha i hope i wont go crazy after my a levels! i plan to stay grounded, volunteer my time, meet up with people ive promised t meet up w (mr tong remains on th top of my list), organise th road trip to malaysia with th ocip girls, decide where t study korean w elaine, learn how t cook (so i dont have t be relegated t only cooking RICE), resolve t not do anything stupid t my hair i took so long t grow out (unlike selestine who wants t cut it short.. haha but im sure she'll look good la :P see i know youre reading i still say such nice thingss... HAHA), and not watch too many korean shows at one time. :D wild bunny family outing dream team music bank.... aye! cannot cannot. shall go off to bathe and study for the case study tomorrow.. haha it's rare that a coherent post actually came up eh? haha i feel strangely at peace today. must be the 13 hours of sleep ive got yesterday hahahahaha. th 7pm show on channel 8 is SO stupid. i.. just realised i wrote 'strangely' quite a few times in this post. just like i wrote 'perhaps, unsurprisingly' 3 or 4 times in my gp essay. hahahahahahha oh no ): shallll REALLY go offline and stop looking at clothes! :\ hahaha good luck everyone! for th rest of th papers.. if you end early like my bestf does (uhm she ends tomorrow after econs).. DONT TALK T ME OKAY *(&*&%^& hahahaha. take care! enjoy yourselves since theyre only a few more, and hopefully you dont have t take any them anymore (heee) will always be here for you!  i like this! wish i owned it... ): gosh its rlly pretty isnt it? ): ):
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